～爱我还是他～

黑暗中的我们都没有说话
你只想回家不想你回家
寂寞深得像海太让人害怕
温柔你的手轻轻揉着我的发
你的眉眼说你好渴望我拥抱
你身体却在拼命逃当欲望在燃烧
你爱我还是他
是不是真的他有比我好你为谁在挣扎
爱我还是他
就说出你想说的真心话
你到底要跟我还是他
这是不是命运对我的惩罚
爱你也没办法恨你也没办法
陷在这个旋涡只想挣脱它
拉着你的手却让我也被拖下
你的眉眼说你不渴望我拥抱
每当爱变成了煎熬你就开始要逃
你爱我还是他
是不是我可以做的更好让你不再挣扎
你爱我还是他
我宁愿听到残忍的回答
也不要再被耍
你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻
你爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吧
yeah
你爱我还是他
你都已看不到我们的好我还灰心牵挂
你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答
我们都别挣扎
去爱他

～我还想她～

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

~我不是好人~

明天一早
待梦境都散去
王子公主
还原普通爱侣
余生都想一起
然而我却心虚怕破绽会给检举
担心我待你好
未够好
热恋真面目
迟来一步
经已力求完美
难像你要的好
我未够好
你别投诉
来日我试试
可否给你更好
平庸像我
正在苦恼
当我不足
给你找到
我怎么好
you are so beautiful
明知高攀
实在攀不到老
查找不足
重头修改配套
谁怕完全转性
若你说我就做
但最后难保周到
明白到似你
应该得到更好
已甚苦恼怎去改
使你的今生更好
不要灰心得太早
如留住我
继续效劳
定有天抵销得到
就怕分手之后
那日还未到

～浮夸～

有人问我我就会讲
但是无人来我期待
到无奈有话要讲
得不到装载
我的心情犹像樽盖等被揭开
咀巴却在养青苔人潮内
愈文静愈变得不受理睬
自己要搞出意外像突然
地高歌任何地方也像开四面台
着最闪的衫扮十分感慨
有人来拍照要记住插袋
你当我是浮夸吧
夸张只因我很怕似木头
似石头的话得到注意吗
其实怕被忘记至放大来演吧
很不安怎去优雅
世上还赞颂沉默吗不够爆炸
怎麽有话题让我夸做大娱乐家
那年十八母校舞会
站着如喽罗
那时候我含泪发誓各位
必须看到我在世间
平凡又普通的路太多
屋村你住哪一座情爱中
工作中受过的忽视太多
自尊已饱经跌堕重视能治肚饿
末曾获得过便知我为何
大动作很多犯下这些错
搏人们看看我算病态麽
幸运儿并不多
若然未当过就知我为何
用十倍苦心做突出一个
正常人够我富议论性麽
你叫我做浮夸吧
加几声嘘声也不怕我在场
有闷场的话表演你看吗
够歇斯底里吗以眼泪淋花吧
一心只想你惊讶
我旧时似未存在吗加重注码
青筋也现形话我知
现在存在吗凝视我
别再只看天花我非你杯茶
也可尽情地喝吧
别遗忘有人在为你声沙

special for u

i wonder how, it has been a while since i know u. around one month?
ur blog is always touching, and making my mood goes around the world.
especially the musics u put.i m not in words. i wonder how people are so clever in touching people's heart with each single word.

she's always mysterious. even i can look at her from time to time. i just dont understand. i cant really guess who's inside her. i hope we get better talk, in fact i see her trying hard to do so. perhaps it's her characteristics.

it's nice though to meet this kind of person. emo-type. im so noob. sometimes im felt myself so childish. getting around to let people notice me. glad she appears in my life. helping me to go thru this crazy life. i dont hope for much. just hope she wil be always be what she promised.

dont get it wrong, she's nobody. she's just one of my good fren. or i should say she's good. i always think she's cool. but it really varies from venues and modes. people always said i think too much. i dont want it, it cames to me.what to do ler?

she reminds me of some real frenship on. she reminds me of a girl who can really put everything on relationship and frenship n everything in life equally. that's what im looking for all the time. i know it's hard. although she's not really capable of making both side perfect and i see she tried her best.

life been crazy.woke up in the evening but i still have nothing down my stomach yet. last nigth the meal was too full for me. even it's 3 dishes only.

quote of my day: u are the best, thanks for everything......

vacuity of 2 weeks

2 weeks passed,

another semester was over.

never changed lot. except the hair is getting longer.

plans for holiday are full. jealous? not to, u will know the consequences.

the timetable was not being ran smoothly. although i told a lot of people i'm following.

happy that i'm doing something for 'it'. it's time for me to take care of my laptop.warranty's over.

overspending, as usual.

self motivation getting lesser, predicted.

self esteem?! effort was done to regain. the result is not satisfying

planning for the next semester? holy sh*t u idi*t. but i though I HAVE to plan ahead?

looking around to search for ideas, it was totally a mess out there. tolerance has its limit please.

the 'network' is down.

facebook world is amazing, sometimes.

around the world? unless she is willing, and daring.

everything is left behind, symptoms begin to shadow my world.

guts are there, but is not usable. perhaps it works when opportunity and coincident occurs

trip is tiring.

yet the big one has to come.

the compatibility of Jesper's body is doubtful.

the 530am clock is working. my eyes are not working properly maybe.

i never try to let u down, but i'm down now. the down-ness continues to hack down everyone.

she's there recently.

feel warm, but is it true?? @.@

the waste management is not functioning again.

laundry services is down also? due to my down-ness? d*mn it

everything's not going in my brain, but everything's coming out from my brain.

娘子-not really reflecting

mirror is reflecting my sleepy look.

outlook never stand by my side, although i prayed.

God's fair, they know who to give and what to take back.

once M said, u need people to understand what are u writing, do u?

words are so limited, hate it.

brush up my vocab? how?

~sekinchen - nice kampung, love it so much~

~Hong Kong Day 2~

~Raining as predicted, never cut down the mood~

-typical hong kong taxi-

-breakfast location-

-the dim sums are just average.though i ate all-

-some of them are exactly same as in here-

-just a road view, i saw accident, but unable to capture it-

-1st check point: Wong Tai Sin-

-the temple view-

-i think the view appeared in some of the tvb drama before, right?-

-temple view-

-tvb drama name?-

-i definitely like this place-

-fire station, passed by-

-2nd station: jackie chan's company-

-unless u are professional, if not you have to refer this-

-which month are you?-

-3rd station: 土产购买地-


-4th station: 女人街 ( that's my mum!)-


-the preparation of the business for the day, i didn't go at the right time, not my fault-


-is his!-


-i looked really fat that time hor? o.O-

-5th station: Disneyland, the awaiting one after HKD10-wantanmee-
-the road from bus to entrance is kinda far =.=-

-can u predict what's the weather now? sobsob-

-the particular landmark u must capture to show u are here, although there's another inside-

-see how heavy the rain :'(-


-the old time america streets-

-streets are so empty-

-the structure really captivating-


-i even like the lamp post. maybe i'm shua pa gao?-

-here is it. the castle-

-theme park. i aint 3 years old-

-although i did went for a few. mum insisted-

-and i insisted i want to take photo of hers.-

-if u watch cartoons alot-

-i'm lucky to met both of them at that time. they were cute!-

-i forgotten when it was taken-

-before going in for a 3D show. a lot more fun than ever i see in singapore and malaysia-

-tarzan's house. to be exact, it's his tree-

-i'm like a nerd. he's damn so darn real-

-downstairs of his hut-

-mickey was walking around and we bumped into him during lunch-

-the sticks-

-that's where i met PIRATES-

-awaiting for the fireworks show-

-my skills wasn't nice enought to capture the whole castle-

-from the behind-

-a random store-

-although the person inside looked dark, still nice-

- this time, better -

-from far-

-after the show, was walking back to the entrance-

-the view from far-

-and the show starts-

-actually it's the ending-

-see the time? almost there. they started on 8pm and the show will took 20minutes-

-eh, overtime already wo-

that night we bought few souvenirs. didn't grab alot since mum controlling.
good though so i wont be overspending.

will be showing more n more in the future...............